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My life

My life is really too complicated...
i hate it..
why others can have their own simple and happy lives?
why i canot?
i know...
its related to our mind...
if you're thinking the hard way...
then your life would be very difficult to pass through...
right...
that's my opinion...
because i'm using that way right now...
haiz..
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tomorrow is the first day for me to fight for semester two...
hope i can do it...
the credit card promoter i think i'm not going to do anymore...

why my parents don't know me as well??
always ask me do this, so that...
but they don't even want try to understand me!!!
They don't understand my situation, my feelings!!
why so selfish??
want work, you ask me, what work you can do without any cert?
if study, you ask me to make a difficult decision...
why you all like that one........
i don't want to complain about you......
but you made me complain...

DIE...
is it a good decision?
if DIE..
THEY WON'T SCOLD ME ANYMORE..
IF DIE..
MY SISTERS WON'T MAKE ME FEEL STRESS ANYMORE..
IF DIE..
NO NEED TO MAKE SO MUCH DECISIONS ANYMORE..
I JUST HAVE TO MAKE ONE DECISION... DIE

Im SICK..................

Arhhhh....
Im so sick...
selsema...my mom said the air-con too cold..
gastric...my mom complain to everyone...said i dowan to eat..(but tis is real larh)
hahaha...
people on diet marh...
mana tahu...
haih..
so suffering...
monday wan go class ard..
suffering again...
haih..
but i cannot give up...
if give up, sure cannot face my family...
so...
cannot give up...
then???
what to do??
just continue suffering lorh!!!!
arhhhh....
i hate larh!!!!!
why like that worh...
i really feel very TIRED with my BORING life...
how could i finish up my life???
die? commit suicide?? run away from home???
these ways just can think only..
they are not suitable for action+ing...

IM NOT GIVING UP!!!!!!!
i WONT give up...
although i knew the way is difficult to go through...
but...
i really will overcome it myself...

now...
already third day of my gastric...
really very PAIN larh...
yerrrr~~
hmm... did anyone know how to thin in a week???
I know！！！
how?????
make yourself sick lorh!!! zzzzzz =.="
because last week my waist is 30...
now...become 27.5=.=""
the tummy also hilang...
but really SUFFERING larh~
its unhealthy orh!!
dont learn...
hahahahah...

Recovered!!!!

actually..

really had happened something while im travelling to singapore last week..

I have been very reluctant to tell others about what had happened..

but..

i really very uncomfortable with it..

i don’t even know what im thinking..

i know he’s not a good guy..

i mean..if im sensible that time, i won’t made a wrong action..

im so regret with it..

but..

what to do?

all these happened, have to blame myself..

not him…

he didn’t wrong…

he just..

not to be frank only…

and the worst is..

if im sensible, i won’t like that type of boy..

u know?

i hate boys who…

addicted to play online games..have a lot of girl’s friend..

and..

the important is..

boys who really lack of responsibility..

HATE them muchh..

Arhh…

im so disappointed when i know he’s a such UNRESPONSIBLE person..

im a girl which can SACRIFICE everything for the person that i really like..

but im also very tension person..

i’ll hardly to trust him..

……

before this, unwilling to accept..

now, already accept it..

and, im so happy now..

hehe!!!!!!!

this stupid lesson told me that..

“Don’t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.”

i really can start my new life without him..

IF you’re still alive, don’t need to think of the past..

IF you’re still alive, whatever you think, just do it…

so please……
CHEER UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Flexible...

我觉得做人，尤其是现代的人，必须能屈能伸。因为，很多事情即时人家答应了，也会做不到，导致希望越高，失望越大。你不懂失望？问我就好了。

我觉得我好像不应该喜欢你的。我懂你喜欢成熟的，可是我真的觉得我做不到。做不到。我真的很没有安全感。你以为我自己要这样的么？我也很辛苦自己有这种思想的好吗？你以为我一直在无理取闹，找你吵架吗？不是的...我也很累。

姐姐说，男生会不珍惜的事，其实，我懂的。我傻，可不是蠢。或许我在某些方面真的很没用，很笨。可是我不使全方面都是这样的。我还是会有自己的思想的。你了解吗？我觉得这样下去也不是办法。我看我还是找另一个男的，帮助我忘掉你吧！这样的话，你就不会觉得我很烦了，不是吗？（好难过，很想告诉自己不要再想了，因为某人都不想你！）我的技术又不是不好，只是生疏了点罢了。你还嫌！哼！你不要我就算！算！(虽然你叫德士的时候很帅-.-)

不要想了！不要再想你了！！想减肥就好了！如何在2个月内瘦11kg呢？我应该能做到吧？blek-.- 炸到。。晕死~ 要去学跳舞和瑜伽了咯！开始去问问做survey吧！^^v 瘦了的话，就不会没安全感了~~哈哈...真希望快点12月...我要去KL找人啦！！你不要我？我会伤心，可是你不会。那算了咯，我会逼自己不去想你，忘记你的。很讨厌自己，为什么整天在等你的信息？！（笨蛋！不要等了！）可是。。等到了，又好兴奋。-.-天啊，我应该是中毒了！

不要这样嘛！都是你！！！谁叫你来搅和我平凡无奇的生活？！王八蛋。。气死了！！！

15.09.09

今天做什么事情都不顺……好像那个天故意要让我收到打击那样！讨厌死了。超不顺的……

希望明天会更好吧！6.30am就要醒了。

早睡早起身体好耶！加油！

14.09.2009

今天很累。
考试呢？不用说。一定全军覆没。我这样说，没有人会相信。可是，我自己很确定。

好累哦。 其实为什么要搞到自己那么累？就因为身高比别人高？还是身材高大需要比别人更坚强？ 有时候真想放弃做女强人的念头。 干脆做一个小女人，有事没事撒撒娇，温柔一下，找个能够依靠依赖的男人过下半辈子就好了。搞什么一定要搞到自己高高在上？一定要做上流社会的女强人？（你以为很容易么？）很难……真的很难的…… 说什么给自己多一点压力，什么都豁出去，敢一点？我，其实是很懦弱的。人生很猜不透。

其实我很想睡觉的，可是，进了房间，开了冷气，对着电脑却又睡不下……护照还没更新，星期六就要飞新了。身份证很烂了，希望他们让我做护照。要不然就来不及了！！每一天都被爸爸骂，这个不对，那个又错了。心情超烂。妈的！哼！

电话费很贵。又被骂了。这个月不会了。我相信自己。^^v

终于了解了那个人的目的。很想告诉你，其实我找男朋友的目的跟你不同。如果你真的想达到你的目的，那你就找错人了。还是不要把时间，电话钱浪费在我身上，然而，这次我去，也应该不会见你吧！之前每个男朋友的目的我都看得清清楚楚，那时也是我好玩，想玩，才会答应他们的。如果你觉得不公平，那你就去找别人做你的女朋友吧！因为在爱情的世界，不会有公平这两个字的。之前是已经过去式了，我也不会重复之前做的事，也不会吃回头草。我是想好好才丢的人。难得我单身也单身了几个月了，如果你真的真心喜欢我，我真的会认真考虑的。我可以说从来就没有那么认真的考虑一个男生过。我习惯单身了，也发觉其实爱情并不好玩。我不会刻意去找一个男朋友，因为真正的缘分没来就没来，不能强求。你明白我的心情吗？

我是一个很需要被重视的女生。只要你一忽视我，当我没到，你给我的印象就扣分了。

你知道吗？我真的很累。做什么事都不顺。可能小人太多了。难道你也想当我的小人吗？你还是想清楚吧！如果你真的只是想玩玩，那我们做回普通朋友就好了。我没有闲情跟你玩。谢谢。