My life

My life is really too complicated...
i hate it..
why others can have their own simple and happy lives?
why i canot?
i know...
its related to our mind...
if you're thinking the hard way...
then your life would be very difficult to pass through...
right...
that's my opinion...
because i'm using that way right now...
haiz..
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tomorrow is the first day for me to fight for semester two...
hope i can do it...
the credit card promoter i think i'm not going to do anymore...

why my parents don't know me as well??
always ask me do this, so that...
but they don't even want try to understand me!!!
They don't understand my situation, my feelings!!
why so selfish??
want work, you ask me, what work you can do without any cert?
if study, you ask me to make a difficult decision...
why you all like that one........
i don't want to complain about you......
but you made me complain...

DIE...
is it a good decision?
if DIE..
THEY WON'T SCOLD ME ANYMORE..
IF DIE..
MY SISTERS WON'T MAKE ME FEEL STRESS ANYMORE..
IF DIE..
NO NEED TO MAKE SO MUCH DECISIONS ANYMORE..
I JUST HAVE TO MAKE ONE DECISION... DIE

Im SICK..................

Arhhhh....
Im so sick...
selsema...my mom said the air-con too cold..
gastric...my mom complain to everyone...said i dowan to eat..(but tis is real larh)
hahaha...
people on diet marh...
mana tahu...
haih..
so suffering...
monday wan go class ard..
suffering again...
haih..
but i cannot give up...
if give up, sure cannot face my family...
so...
cannot give up...
then???
what to do??
just continue suffering lorh!!!!
arhhhh....
i hate larh!!!!!
why like that worh...
i really feel very TIRED with my BORING life...
how could i finish up my life???
die? commit suicide?? run away from home???
these ways just can think only..
they are not suitable for action+ing...

IM NOT GIVING UP!!!!!!!
i WONT give up...
although i knew the way is difficult to go through...
but...
i really will overcome it myself...

now...
already third day of my gastric...
really very PAIN larh...
yerrrr~~
hmm... did anyone know how to thin in a week???
I know！！！
how?????
make yourself sick lorh!!! zzzzzz =.="
because last week my waist is 30...
now...become 27.5=.=""
the tummy also hilang...
but really SUFFERING larh~
its unhealthy orh!!
dont learn...
hahahahah...

Recovered!!!!

actually..

really had happened something while im travelling to singapore last week..

I have been very reluctant to tell others about what had happened..

but..

i really very uncomfortable with it..

i don’t even know what im thinking..

i know he’s not a good guy..

i mean..if im sensible that time, i won’t made a wrong action..

im so regret with it..

but..

what to do?

all these happened, have to blame myself..

not him…

he didn’t wrong…

he just..

not to be frank only…

and the worst is..

if im sensible, i won’t like that type of boy..

u know?

i hate boys who…

addicted to play online games..have a lot of girl’s friend..

and..

the important is..

boys who really lack of responsibility..

HATE them muchh..

Arhh…

im so disappointed when i know he’s a such UNRESPONSIBLE person..

im a girl which can SACRIFICE everything for the person that i really like..

but im also very tension person..

i’ll hardly to trust him..

……

before this, unwilling to accept..

now, already accept it..

and, im so happy now..

hehe!!!!!!!

this stupid lesson told me that..

“Don’t try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.”

i really can start my new life without him..

IF you’re still alive, don’t need to think of the past..

IF you’re still alive, whatever you think, just do it…

so please……
CHEER UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!